In the last three weeks I have had my writing ability stretched. Although this has been scary at first I have had more positive experiences that allow me to beat the challenges that were holding me back before.
I have learnt over the years that I have patterns of behaviour when it comes to using my own thoughts and intelligence. Mainly that I am not good enough. My cycle has looked like this:
Apply for paid or voluntary work.
Interview for paid or voluntary work.
Get offered paid or voluntary work.
Panic that I am not good enough.
Turn down offer of paid or voluntary work.
Just over a year ago, I took control of my life. I decided that it was time for me to be who I am meant to be and push myself to make better choices, take the steps that were scary to me and show the world who I can be.
Within a year I have made a name for myself as a writer. A writer who can cover a multitude of genres.
By taking one step at a time I have challenged my fears, overcome them and obliterated them.
In the last three weeks I have been commissioned to write 20 blogs for one company, I have written 10 for another and 5 for someone else.
Taking those steps and seeing the feedback coming back to me is a dream come true.
As always when one dream gets fulfilled, another one grows. By having made these choices, pushed myself and succeeded, I know that with my new learning, my new experience and my new confidence, the future is in my hands.
It is finally the day where I am believing in myself to make a five year plan, a ten year plan, a lifetime plan. Knowing that I actually have a chance of achieving it.
To anyone out there who is scared of taking that step, scared of pushing yourself a little bit more. Give it a try. You might suprise yourself x